Subject: video... 'If You Take me Apart'

all weekend we have worked hard on shooting our video.
it was very stressful and quite disorientating,
i felt quite sick at one point.
the strobe was a bit mad.
in a break we wrote a new song,
its great to have a moment like that,
so busy and full of songs and words and noise and tired,
i am so tired now though.

again and again and again and again

i wait all day to write
i need all day to write and it smarts,
stings,
wrings me out,
leaves me dry.
the fear eats daily,
a total fear,
songs that hurts,
songs that kicks,
days that stretch.
again and again and again and again and again.

the year my life exploded

start:all of a sudden she wakes,
he is not beside he,
he left his thumb print inside her,
she stumbles...
he travels.
the light catches his breath between them,
words he cannot bring himself to say.
soon, soon,
he thinks he will be closer to her than ever before,
slowly, slowly,
she removes herself from his walls,
his room,
his television,
his lungs.
EnD.